I’m reading the Bhagavad Gita slowly but surely for the first time; I’m four chapters in. I’m a voracious reader and could usually blow through a book the size of the BG in a couple hours, but I don’t want to blow through it. It is a beautiful text from what I’ve read so far. I absolutely loved the third chapter. Overall, one of my favorite things about the text is the setting. Here’s an excerpt from Stephen Mitchell’s introduction on page 15 of the text:
The Gita takes place on the battlefield of Kuru at the beginning of the war. Arjuna has his charioteer, Krishna (who turns out to be God incarnate), drive him into the open space between the two armies, where he surveys the combatants. Overwhelmed with dread and pity at the imminent death of so many brave warriors – brothers, cousins, and kinsmen – he drops his weapons and refuses to fight. This is the cue for Krishna to begin his teaching about life and deathlessness, duty, nonattachment, the Self, love, spiritual practice, and the inconceivable depths of reality.
When I’m reading the BG, I see that battlefield with Krishna and Arjuna sitting in the middle of a war that is about to go off badly. He’s thrown down his weapons, doesn’t know what to do, and has been taken to a still place in the thick of the battle that’s about to start. Instead of reacting a making a decision while emotional, he listens. I can see warriors all around him with fire in their eyes, ready to slaughter each other at a moment’s notice.
I can think of some pretty big times in life when I’ve been at that absolutely distraught point and thrown down my weapons. I have a mountaintop on the Tennessee/North Carolina border I’ve gone to at these times. It’s a healing place and it takes a lot more effort to get there these days since I live in California, but I’ve made it back when I’ve needed it.That’s for the big ones. Each day has a couple minor moments where I just want a pause button or I find myself practically chanting a Samuel Beckett mantra, “I can’t go on, I’ll go on.” I want to take a moment out of this battle and just talk it out. On those days, I take a walk, throw down my mat, put some Bach on the iPod, something to give me a moment to breathe and listen to the still place underneath the noise.
Last night in class, I was holding dancer pose while one of my friends was practicing her mad assisting skills on me. She was grounding me and opening up my heart more than I usually do on my own. I felt strong, incredibly present, and supported. In being present, I knew that I could throw off this pose at any moment – lean forward, stop breathing deeply, simply disengage. I didn’t, and that’s what made laser beams shoot out of my fingers and toes. I stayed and found a still place in the center of the opposite pulls of grounding down/rising up and pulling back/reaching forward. While in this moment of the pose, the image I have of the BG’s setting popped in my head. I realized one of the most beautiful things about the BG is that Arjuna can leave at any moment, but he doesn’t. At any moment, he can turn his back on Krishna and stop listening. Arjuna even questions Krishna, but he stays and listens rather than blowing him off. He stays in this still place and goes deeper into conversation. It is a setting of surrender, renunciation, patience, trust, etc. that are in the foundation of faith.
At least that’s what I got out of it.
Speaking of my mountaintop
I’ve written 639 words, not exactly 800, but I say this counts.