fermata

I’m reading the Bhagavad Gita slowly but surely for the first time; I’m four chapters in. I’m a voracious reader and could usually blow through a book the size of the BG in a couple hours, but I don’t want to blow through it. It is a beautiful text from what I’ve read so far. I absolutely loved the third chapter. Overall, one of my favorite things about the text is the setting. Here’s an excerpt from Stephen Mitchell’s introduction on page 15 of the text:

The Gita takes place on the battlefield of Kuru at the beginning of the war. Arjuna has his charioteer, Krishna (who turns out to be God incarnate), drive him into the open space between the two armies, where he surveys the combatants. Overwhelmed with dread and pity at the imminent death of so many brave warriors – brothers, cousins, and kinsmen – he drops his weapons and refuses to fight. This is the cue for Krishna to begin his teaching about life and deathlessness, duty, nonattachment, the Self, love, spiritual practice, and the inconceivable depths of reality.

When I’m reading the BG, I see that battlefield with Krishna and Arjuna sitting in the middle of a war that is about to go off badly. He’s thrown down his weapons, doesn’t know what to do, and has been taken to a still place in the thick of the battle that’s about to start. Instead of reacting a making a decision while emotional, he listens. I can see warriors all around him with fire in their eyes, ready to slaughter each other at a moment’s notice.

I can think of some pretty big times in life when I’ve been at that absolutely distraught point and thrown down my weapons. I have a mountaintop on the Tennessee/North Carolina border I’ve gone to at these times. It’s a healing place and it takes a lot more effort to get there these days since I live in California, but I’ve made it back when I’ve needed it.That’s for the big ones. Each day has a couple minor moments where I just want a pause button or I find myself practically chanting a Samuel Beckett mantra, “I can’t go on, I’ll go on.” I want to take a moment out of this battle and just talk it out. On those days, I take a walk, throw down my mat, put some Bach on the iPod, something to give me a moment to breathe and listen to the still place underneath the noise.

Last night in class, I was holding dancer pose while one of my friends was practicing her mad assisting skills on me. She was grounding me and opening up my heart more than I usually do on my own. I felt strong, incredibly present, and supported. In being present, I knew that I could throw off this pose at any moment – lean forward, stop breathing deeply, simply disengage. I didn’t, and that’s what made laser beams shoot out of my fingers and toes. I stayed and found a still place in the center of the opposite pulls of grounding down/rising up and pulling back/reaching forward. While in this moment of the pose, the image I have of the BG’s setting popped in my head. I realized one of the most beautiful things about the BG is that Arjuna can leave at any moment, but he doesn’t. At any moment, he can turn his back on Krishna and stop listening. Arjuna even questions Krishna, but he stays and listens rather than blowing him off. He stays in this still place and goes deeper into conversation. It is a setting of surrender, renunciation, patience, trust, etc. that are in the foundation of faith.

At least that’s what I got out of it.

Speaking of my mountaintop

I’ve written 639 words, not exactly 800, but I say this counts.

Get angry? Really?

from anger, confusion follows;
from confusion, weakness of memory;
weak memory – weak understanding;
weak understanding – ruin. [BG 2.63]

I started reading the Stephen Mitchell’s translation of the Bhagavad Gita with elephant journal’s Gita Talk project. I haven’t been as disciplined as I hoped on the project, am running behind, but can still access the comments and find others like me who also diving into this text, albeit virtually.

I was re-reading Chapter Two and this excerpt summed up how I feel about all the talking heads in a huff about Obama not showing anger over the BP Oil spill. I heard a very thoughtful comment on the radio the other day – that people seem more outraged over the stage managing of the response than the response. I think there is a misperception that lack of anger equals lack of empathy.

I voted for Obama for many reasons. One of the reasons being that he rose above the political theater that is American politics and presented a calm, collected, intellegent leadership. He thought about what he said and spoke like an adult rather than delivering empty titillating rhetoric meant to incite reaction instead of action.

I think this catastrophe is unfathomable for everyone. We are used to the crime being discovered, the bad guys cuffed, and the prison sentence handed out neatly within an hour of a Law & Order episode. We watch Dexter Morgan wait outside the prison to get that murderer who slipped through the system. We are used to seeing easy justice or the victim/survivors bravely walking on with good lighting and thoughtfully placed mascara streaks.

The world, unfortunately does not work like this. Especially when a response to a catastrophe like we have never seen before with no easy solution is tied up in so much red tape and emotion. We know this, of course, but part of us so desperately want Jack Bauer to swoop in and make it all better.

One thing that does happen in real life as it does in an episode of Law & Order or Dexter is that people make grave mistakes when they act out in anger. They get sloppy and confused – ruination gets further ruined when decisions are infued with unchecked anger.

The spill is overwhelmingly heartbreaking. I think everyone who has been saying for years, decades even, that the oil industry is crooked is tragically unsurprised and even more heartbroken. There are so many tangled webs of blame and pain to go around. So many steps that could have been taken to prevent it. It’s a failure of deregulation, greed, and engineering. So much of this has come together in an unbelievably painful catastrophe that is devastating already endangered environmental and cultural systems.

I, for one, feel reassured that Obama has not come out foaming at the mouth. I like what Frank Rich said in his Sunday column – Don’t Get Mad, Mr. President. Get Even..

I didn’t vote for someone who was going to be reactionary. I voted for someone who will make quick, yet informed, decisions and take responsibility for them. Am I 100% happy with the response? No. Do I give Obama an A+ on every single aspect of his Presidency? Of course not. I’m saying decisions made out of anger and emotion are the last things we need in executive leadership and that these calls for Obama to show anger are calls for a show, not action.

I would rather get bad news delivered and addressed like this:

Than this:

or for someone to make excuses and lie like this:

Obama tell me what is happening, the problems you have identified and how you are addressing them. Talk to me like an adult. Tell me the successes and failures without excuses. Ignore the talking heads and feel free to put them in their place every now and then. Channel your rage and anger into action – stay focused to avoid weakness and confusion. Be a warrior.

I don’t sit around just talking to experts because this is a college seminar,” Mr. Obama told the show’s host, Matt Lauer, during an interview here, where the president was delivering a high school commencement speech. “We talk to these folks because they potentially have the best answer so I know whose ass to kick.

It is going to be really, really bad for a really long time. Watching a president get angry like they do on television is not going to help the situation.

Final note: People, you can keep your Mission Accomplished or bullhorn at Ground Zero moment. I’ll take my president keeping his cool and getting shit mindfully done without wavering on holding BP accountable. The media should do the same thing and help us as a nation used to “an ap for that” to accept the fact that there is no easy way out of this. We are on the battlefield and need to make the right decisions at the right time.